Hello My Friends,
I wasn't going to post this because I tend to keep everything inside. I let a few dear friends know what's going on. Some have told other friends that, I just didn't want to burden with this kind of thing. They didn't do wrong but had to vent, this unpleasent news. It turns out I have more friends here than anywhere else. Sounds lame? Well, I don't think so.
I had been having problems for the last 3 mths. Not being able to eat and hold down my food. I thought Gee, what a good way to lose some pounds? Well, Heide told me to go to the Dr. so, I did. After they shoved a hose down my throat, found a tumor, took a biopsy they found out it was malignant. So, Esophageal Cancer was the term used.
I had an Ultrasound test(another tube shoved down my throat. That particular Dr. gave me hope), today the Xrays and CT Scan(bummer, had to drink 15 oz's of nasty Barrium, not to mention 3 trys for the IV in one arm and finally went in the other). Tomorrow is the P.E.T. test (positron emission tomography scan, a nuclear sugar test). Chemo and Radiation is something I regret, but will have to deal with.
Anyway, I was feeling kind of bad for not telling the rest of my close friends, not wanting to burden them with this knowledge. A rock and a hard space, till today. Today, at the ph I told who, I thought was a friend and he turns to another with a loud voice and says, "Hey Tommy, Chris is dead, he's got cancer". I was floored and felt humiliated as others looked. Some don't talk to me and others whisper and point.
I don't know yet if the cancer has invaded anywhere else in my body till, I see the oncologist, after he reads the test results. I did freak out at first and was like silly putty for 3 days in which my dear friends Voodoo, Kato, and Tom from Cinci held my sanity togather. Fran and Carol gave me their support and offered anything. Along with Scott Lee, Rod and Ken(thanks for the book, cross and the support). I didn't tell anyone else and couldn't get in touch with RIP as I eraced his # accidentally from memory.
First, I want you all to know I'm a proud man. I don't want or need pity. I know there's a lot of people who care for me here. Also, I would like to apologize for not saying anything.
I'm a pool player. Nothing more and nothing less. I don't give up in a match and refuse to accept a loss till I get beat. Cancer as far as I'm concerned, gets the 7 ball. I'm not going to give in and shed one more tear for Heide and Christ(my son). I am going to beat this, if it takes everything in my arsenal. If it does take my life then so be it. I wanted all of you to know I never met the most wonderful bunch of people in my life. God bless all of you. You people are the greatest most kind I've ever met. Thank you all for being my friends.
Chris Cass~~ [img]/ccboard/images/graemlins/grin.gif[/img]