Tomorrows the 21st day of Chemo and Radiation. I get the triple dipper of Chemo once more. The first day revisited. Toxol 4hrs, Carbo 2hrs. and then back to the 5FU 24/7 via pump. To follow with 5 days a week Radiation.
The half way point. The first triple dipper had me require a shot of steroids for and hr. as they got that elephant off my chest as I calmly told them I was about to croak. I hadn't done the pre-meds 13hrs then again at 7 hrs. before the triple dipper.
The first 10 days had me not posting, crying at a notice moment over nothing and God forbid you mention a friends name. Nausia 24/7 brutal. It had me dehydrated and thrown in the hospital for 24 1/2 hrs.
Wondering what's coming tomorrow? I took the pre-meds tonight at 7:30pm amd again at 2:00am. I know I'm off a little. I'm wired for sound and know I need to take care of business to meet the Vegas Masters. No exceptions. VF is a no way. Sorry B., that would have been too cool for me.
Well, I'm losing my hair in droves. I can rub my head and [censored] flys off everywhere. Who didn't know that? LOL I don't care. Something about the Chemo thing. It lets you know it's there and in control. It's slowly taking my life but my mind says no. Too many things to fight for. Too many projects, too many people to see. Too much love to give up and pool players don't quit during a match.
I thought I was a tough guy. Chemo and Radiation shows me I ain't about $hit. What, I have is my pre-shot routine. I take one pain at a time. One day at a time and I will make it through the match hopefully. That's my plan.
If it doesn't work? What can I say? I've been a puppet, a pawper, a piarot, a poet, a pawn and a king. I've been up and down and over and out and know one thing. Each time I find myself falling flat on my face I pick myself up and get back in the race. That's life, I can't denigh it. I can't even spell and I know you won't buy it. LOL I'm losing it....Goodnight.
My Love to all,
C.C.~~I know the songs wrong. Just wanted to say solong for awhile in advanced, I'll be back.... [img]/ccboard/images/graemlins/grin.gif[/img]
PS: I have been able to get control to an extent through meds and timing. This is possible so don't count me out of anything. My at home nursey has nice leggs but refuses to wear the outfits. LOL